Life in a Bind – BPD and me

My therapy journey, recovering from Borderline Personality Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I write for , for Planet Mindful magazine, and for Muse Magazine Australia, under the name Clara Bridges. Listed in Top Ten Resources for BPD in 2016 by

You know you’re borderline when….


.……you take automated WordPress emails personally and feel criticized and upset by them….

Yes, at the risk of seeming to take BPD lightheartedly – sometimes you just have to laugh after you’ve cried – this was me, a few weeks ago.

I was in the middle of my six week break in therapy. I was feeling pretty terrible, as I tend to do during therapy breaks. I was messing around in WordPress, and when I next checked my email, I saw this:


I was gutted and furious at the same time. F**k WordPress. How DARE it call me vain? Oh WordPress, how can you do this to me, and make me weep on the inside?

I hadn’t even realised I’d clicked on a ‘Like‘ button Β – why are they so bloody impossible to find on other people’s sites when you’re looking for them, and so apparently easy to mistakenly click on, on your own? SORT IT, WORDPRESS!

I was seriously upset. I was mortified at being called vain. WordPress was EVIL.

It wasn’t until the next day that I actually understood the joke.

Of course I think ‘Swallowing up the storm – BPD and anger‘ is about me. It IS about me – it’s my post.

Ha ha WordPress. You’ve actually got a sense of humour you mischievous son-of-a-b***h. You’re actually rather funny.

But I’ll be damned if I ever ‘Like’ another post of mine again.


12 thoughts on “You know you’re borderline when….

  1. I also accidentally liked a post of my own yesterday. I was playing around on my phone, not wearing my glasses and hit the wrong button.
    I’m also accidentally following my blog. Another hit of a wrong button. I must start wearing my glasses! LOL!
    Enjoyed your post…keep them coming.


    • πŸ™‚ I read your post on this too, and it made me smile. Our responses were so different – you blamed yourself, I blamed WordPress! I’m intrigued now, about what message I might get if I follow my blog – I’m in a better place, emotionally, than I was then, so maybe I will try it, without adverse consequences! Thank you for reading and commenting, I really appreciate it, and so glad you enjoyed the post!


  2. It was nice to see a post that may point me to BPD humor. It is so rare because a joke can be a stab to us. Thanks for sharing.


    • Thank you so much for reading and commenting. I’m glad you were glad I shared this, as I must admit, I was nervous about doing so. I know exactly what you mean about how a joke can just feel like someone ‘having a go’, and it can feel really invalidating. And I’m conscious that although I am feeling thankfully on a temporary even keel at the moment, many many others may be going through hell and light-heartedness is just not conceivable right now. And I certainly don’t want to upset or offend. So it’s a relief to see your comment! And I hope at least the thought that it is conceivable to occasionally feel like you can laugh at yourself, even if that seems impossible at the moment, will be encouraging for someone…..Take care and thank you again for commenting, I really appreciate it!


  3. Well, I might have thrown a Borderline wobbler, ‘bloody cheek’! I occasionally like my own posts by mistake and know of one or two others who do it regularly (I assume without mistake). I also follow my own blog. What I can’t figure is why they would design a way to tell us *old misery guts here fails to see the humour* ;0)

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  4. Yer I did try it and the cheeky buggers said I’m vain!!


  5. Sorry this upset you- I agree I hate it when things say stuff like this 😦 I think it’s a quote from a song though, “you’re so vain” is a song I think, and says “you’re so vain, you probably think this song is about you” but they’ve changed ‘song’ for ‘blog’? I hope maybe it might make you feel better if you think of it like a song lyric, I may be wrong but thought it was worth letting you know.
    Ignore wordpress, you’re great and I love your posts- the deserve all the likes in the world!


    • You’re right, it is a quote from a song, but even knowing that (which I realised at the time) wasn’t enough to stop my reaction! πŸ™‚ I was really feeling very easily triggered at the time! But thankfully I am now able to see the funny side πŸ™‚ I will ignore comments like that from WordPress – particularly when I get such heart-warming and amazing comments such as yours, thank you πŸ™‚ I’m so glad you love my posts, and do keep in touch, it’s always good to hear from others and to interact and get to know each other better!


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