Life in a Bind – BPD and me

Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and my therapy journey. Listed in Top Ten Resources for BPD in 2016 by goodtherapy.org. I write for welldoing.org under the name Clara Bridges.

Memory Monday – “Even the hairdresser’s made me cry”

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This week’s Memory Monday coincides with the first anniversary of my entry into the blogging world, and so I am linking to my first ever post:

https://lifeinabind.com/2014/03/23/even-the-hairdressers-made-me-cry/

Eighty-nine posts and around 72,000 words later, and I am very much looking forward to my second year as a mental health blogger! I have gained so much from the process: community, friendship, support, information, insight, advice, humour, encouragement, challenge….I could go on. Writing, and processing thoughts, experiences and emotions through writing, has also become a key part of my therapy. So much so, that when I’m not writing, I don’t tend to feel as connected to my therapist – an interesting question in itself, for discussion during a session….

I want to take this opportunity to say a massive thank you to anyone who has read or commented on a post over the last year – it’s been wonderful interacting with you and getting to know you. I always appreciate it when someone takes the time to let me know that something I have written has struck a chord or has been important to them. I have been struck in this way by so many wonderful posts by other bloggers, it’s humbling to know that sometimes others relate in the same way, to one of my own. So thank you – and apologies for the occasions when it takes me a little while to respond to a comment! I like to reply fully while approving every comment, and so I’m not always able to be as quick as I would like.

For those who follow, read and comment regularly, whose wonderful words and encouragement I treasure – an extra special thank you. You inspire me, challenge me, comfort me, and you are always thought-provoking. Β I feel like I’ve got to know you a little, and some of you I am in touch with outside of WordPress, and I am privileged to think of you as friends. I very much look forwarding to continuing our discussions over the next twelve months. πŸ™‚

As for the book described in my first ever post – I did eventually finish it, but not until around six months later. I hate to read a few pages at a time, and so I saved it until my next opportunity to spend several hours reading, when I could really immerse myself in it. The second half of the book was just as wonderful, and had exactly the same effect on me. For reasons I still don’t fully understand (I even asked my therapist to read it, in case she had any insights about it), I once again felt sadness, pain and longing while reading. And when I finished the book lying in bed at the end of the day, I spent a long time in hard sobbing. The only possible reasons I can still come up with, are the ones given in my post; but I am hoping that further along in my therapy journey, I will be able to understand them better. The reaction was so powerful, so visceral, that I do think that it must have therapeutic significance. But sometimes that significance takes time to uncover, and time to understand.

Perhaps I shall read it again just before the end of my second year of blogging. I wonder if I will have some fresh insights on it then? Or perhaps if you read it too, you can help me with some of your own! Happy reading – and THANK YOU again, for making my first year in the blog-o-sphere, such an extraordinary one….

 

 

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9 thoughts on “Memory Monday – “Even the hairdresser’s made me cry”

  1. Happy Anniversary! πŸ™‚

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  2. What a powerful memory to mark your anniversary.

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    • Thank you so much for reading and commenting – it’s interacting with other bloggers, like you, that is part of what makes the blogging experience so good and makes me look forward to another year! That post is indeed a powerful memory – and I’d love to read the book again. I’m intrigued about whether it would have the same effect….

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  3. So glad you started this blog and can’t believe it’s been a whole year! Truly worth celebrating (with a trip overseas…???) πŸ™‚ xxxx

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  4. Happy Anniversary sweet, I call the blogosphete my e-family! It’s simply awesome what we do for each other virtually – indeed it’s therapeutic. Come to think of it, even haters could give insight to ponder on. I get a very tiny few and don’t know about you, but I just thought to share this way of looking at it.

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    • Hi Marie, thank you so much for your message! πŸ™‚ It is indeed a wonderful extended family, and I’m so grateful for it! I agree that insight can come from lots of different places, and am lucky not to have had any ‘haters’ so far, but hope I would manage to not be too upset but to try and think about where comments might be coming from, and what they might have to teach me….it sounds as though you are managing to do that with the few negative comments you might have (though it’s hard to imagine anyone having a negative thing to say!). So glad to hear from you again xx

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