Life in a Bind – BPD and me

My therapy journey, recovering from Borderline Personality Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I write for welldoing.org , for Planet Mindful magazine, and for Muse Magazine Australia, under the name Clara Bridges. Listed in Top Ten Resources for BPD in 2016 by goodtherapy.org.

The stranger who has loved you

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I feel like such a long, long way from this. But my therapist is helping me to take down the letters from the bookshelf. She has my heart – until I can give it back to the stranger who has loved me.

Loving yourself

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9 thoughts on “The stranger who has loved you

  1. LiaB,
    How very beautiful. I found this especially fitting as at my session today, BN and I talked about how far I have come and I realized that I have done the very thing I always dreaded, and allowed someone to see all of me. And instead of what I expected, which was to be abandoned, I found complete security and a home where I could find myself. So the line about smiling in the mirror really struck me. We also talked about shame and how I was so engulfed in it, that I didn’t even realize it. But now I am able to “see” the feeling when it comes up and move through it. All things I have learned from BN, but one more realization today was that I now carry them within me. I used to know it was going to be OK because BN was there, now I just know I’ll be ok. He believed in me long enough for me to learn to believe in myself. I’m saying all this to tell you that I too once believed it would be impossible to get here. But it will happen, you will heal. I am glad that you have someone to carry your heart, until you are strong enough to carry it yourself. Thank you for this, it is a grace note for my day. ~ AG

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    • Thank you so much AG, for your lovely comment, and I’m so glad you liked this and that it was helpful for you. Your words give me hope – because I’m definitely still at the stage where I fear for whether I’m going to be okay without her, and I don’t see how I can be. But’s it’s very encouraging to have your words, and your reassurance that I will get there. At the same time, of course, the thought is devastating – that one day I won’t need her in the way that I do now….thank you for reading and commenting…..

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  2. That brought up an emotion I didn’t know I had for myself. I can’t explain it very well but it almost felt like pity but at the same time hope that one day that stranger won’t be a stranger to me anymore. Thank you.

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  3. Reblogged this on AlistarWolf and commented:
    Someday, I hope that the stranger in me will become my friend.

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  4. Oh wow, I love this! Beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing.

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  5. Reblogged this on Life in a Bind – BPD and me and commented:

    A wonderful poem by Nobel Laureate, poet and playwright Derek Walcott, who died today. Many, when despairing, have found this helpful. It is the opposite of where I’m at today, but I have to believe that I’ll feel like this one day….

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