Since I saw the film ‘Shadowlands’ in 1993, I have loved this quote. I love it because the words are beautiful and the imagery is haunting and evocative. Give me anything else, “but not this nothing time, not this waiting room of the world”. I love it simply for what it is – a wonderful description of the anticipation of spring.

But these days, I also love it as a metaphor. A metaphor for love, for life, for BPD, for therapy. A metaphor for the emptiness between extremes of intense emotion. An emptiness that feels as though it will squeeze the life out of you, like drowning in mud.

Give me something to feel – I’m tired of waiting in the ante-chamber of my heart…..