Life in a Bind – BPD and me

My therapy journey, recovering from Borderline Personality Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I write for , for Planet Mindful magazine, and for Muse Magazine Australia, under the name Clara Bridges. Listed in Top Ten Resources for BPD in 2016 by

World Suicide Prevention Day – 10 September


World Suicide Prevention Day is observed on 10 September every year. It promotes awareness, commitment and action towards preventing suicide, with events and activities being held around the world. Suicide is still a taboo subject, though more people die through completing suicide than through murder or war – more than one million every year worldwide, with twenty times that number attempting suicide. Over the last few months I have written about the importance of talking more openly about suicide, and the factors that might prevent us from doing so.

But for this World Suicide Prevention Day I wanted to re-post I poem I wrote just as I started to come out of a three week period of feeling suicidal in August 2014. What prompted the poem, and the start of that emergence from suicidal feelings, was the incredibly supportive response to a post I wrote describing my depression and desire to escape from life. That support helped me to turn a corner; and as I drove past a beautifully lit medieval castle at night, which only days before had triggered mental images of falling from its crumbling walls into the shadows below – words of strength started to flow through my mind instead. I hope this poem can be an encouragement to anyone who is struggling with suicidal thoughts now, on 10 September itself, or in the days afterwards. An image of death and despair can become an image of strength and survival, and sometimes all it takes are a few words from some one or some others who can see that you have a place in the world – however impossible that might feel to believe right now.

The poem is called ‘If the shadow falls’.

when shadows fall final

6 thoughts on “World Suicide Prevention Day – 10 September

  1. Thank you very much for bringing awareness to World Suicide Prevention Day. Your poem is wonderful. Take care x

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  2. Your story reminds me of the play “Death and the Maiden.” It was made into a film with Glenn Close. I’ve not seen the film, but I think you might see yourself in the play, especially in being able to recapture something taken from you.

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    • Thank you for the pointer 🙂 I don’t know the play but will look it up….I’m intrigued! Having been away and then trying to settle back into work, I have a backlog of comments to reply to but will try and do so soon – thank you for all your ones over the last few weeks!


  3. Beautiful poem. Your words made me cry. Been feeling down and out lately, and thinking a lot about just ending it all. I don’t feel like I belong here… But it should pass soon.


    • Massive hugs, I hope it is passing, and I’m so sorry I didn’t reply until now…..I believe in you and in a more content future for you, however difficult that seems to believe in now….you are precious and would be missed and you _do_ belong. You belong in life, even if sometimes you don’t feel as though you belong in your head, or in your body, or even in the life that you have now. But you belong in life….take care xx


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